My name is Vanessa and I’m musician, artist, and mystic. I was born and raised in New Orleans, LA and currently live in Queens, NY. I make experimental devotional music and write about ecstasy and the body. I received my BFA with a concentration in painting from the University of Massachusetts in Amherst and have been creating and performing music since I was 4 years old. I also hosted the dark electronic radio show TOTAL CONTROL on Brooklyn’s Newtown Radio for two years, and have contributed writing to the podcast Welcome to Night Vale.
I released my first solo EP, Deipna, in January of 2017 and my first full-length album, dedicated to the goddess Babalon, in November of 2017. I released my first published work, Saint Raphael The Archangel, a pamphlet I co-authored in July of 2018 through Hadean Press. I also released a collaborative musical piece, a ritual invocation to Mars, in December 2018. In 2019 I had an interview published in The Brazen Vessel, through Scarlet Imprint.
My spiritual journey began at the age of 5 with a near death experience in which I had a vision that proved to me that there is more to life than what we can perceive with our limited senses. After being raised Catholic while suffering years of sexual and physical abuse at the hands of a family member, I rejected religion and spirituality for many years, though I never forgot the vision. Throughout my adolescence and early adulthood I experienced my own personal dark night of the soul and struggled with suicidal depression, drug addiction, and eating disorders. I have been on a healing journey for the past 20 years and most importantly on a path back to my own body, which I believe to be my own greatest teacher and spiritual tool.
I have studied yoga and breathwork and underwent yoga teacher training in 2011. I have studied and practiced buddhist meditation and have read tarot for over a decade. I’m a practitioner of traditional astrology with a specialized interest in astrological magic and medical astrology (the astrology of the body.) I’m also a folk herbalist, an animist, and proponent of ancestral health and wellness and am currently studying to become a certified nutritionist. I practice both weightlifting and ecstatic dance. I have a devotional relationship with the rosary and the saints and in particular the female mystics whose lives and work have allowed me to reclaim my relationship to Catholicism and my own sexuality. I take a holistic approach to wellness and healing which views body mind and spirit as inseparable and of equal importance. I think every action we take to heal and to become well is a devotional act both to ourselves and to our ancestors.
What you’ll find on this website are practices, guides, recipes, tools, and resources that I’ve gathered, created, and implemented on my own personal journey. My hope is that you will find them useful, inspiring, and healing.